surrender

 Photo: Nicola Merciadri/ Explore Tuscany

Photo: Nicola Merciadri/Explore Tuscany

How often we fight ourselves. We fight ourselves violently; silently.

We set aside the happiness and the joy we might gloriously bask in and we say no.

I will deny myself. 

Today I will be busy.

I will be perfect.

I will not look outside the window at the sky.

I will not breathe the fresh air.

I will not stop even for a second.

I have things to do and places to be to transform me into the imaginary figment of who I should be.

At every corner, every junction, every decision, we choose to fight.

What if though, you did not need to be that woman? What if you didn’t need to be anything at all?

What if, wrapped in a blanket with a cup of tea with just your beating heart, you were everything you needed?

People will say you hold the whole universe within you: but what if you didn’t even that?

What if, you stopped.

Just stopped. No guilt. No anxiety.

What if instead you listened to the sound of your own heart beating. For just a few seconds.

Without judgment.

Without processing.

Without fear.

And learned to make peace with yourself.

What if you found within your own depths not the stars and the galaxies and the universe, but simply everything you needed.

Surrender.

From that well springs joy. From that well springs calm.

And you might be able to start living.

Earth to sky.

Breath to breath.

Heartbeat to heartbeat.

Moment to moment.

 

 Photo: Nicola Merciadri/ Explore Tuscany  

Photo: Nicola Merciadri/Explore Tuscany